“What do I want?”
As simple as it sounds, this is one of the most difficult questions to answer. Why is that?
It doesn’t matter what I'm thinking about on the surface, or what others think of me. This question strikes through every fiber of my being, and challenges me over whatever it is that I’ve spent my time stressing over and freaking out about. What. Do. I. Want?
So, I may not have any idea what it is that I actually want...but I do know what I don’t want. I have an idea of what it is that makes my heart race, and makes my brain spark out of curiosity. Maybe it’s adrenaline? No; it’s way more than that. It’s the burning desire to rush and find the next sustainable step that will catapult this sensation to a place outside of myself. To my hands. To the paper. To the computer. To the perfect person. To the world.
"What do I want?"
I do know. I know exactly what it is that I want. It’s the rush I get when I discover that hum. The hum that drives my heart, then to my mind, then to the outside, and then back inside me. I want the thing that everyone says is insane to go after. I want the thing that every single moment I have ever experienced has brought me to this point to do. I want to do the one thing that does not guarantee me anything, yet I am attracted to it. Thinking about living life and looking back on my legacy. What if I realize that the key to living a fulfilling life was to jump into the unknown? I don't take anymore delays on starting that life.
What do I want?
Here’s my big revelation: to leap.
I want to take a leap of faith, and go after my wildest dreams.
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