Change is good, right?

By Etinosa Ogbevoen

People tell you all the time that change is inevitable, which is true. But many of them forget to tell you that change is not always easy. Change means that you are either making a conscious effort to break old habits to adopt new ones or there are the changes that happen against your own will. Those, to me, are the most difficult types of change. 

I’m a 22-year-old who moved to Kansas City, MO because I thought I needed a change of scenery, and I was right. I really moved to Kansas City thinking I would have the time of my life. I was going to explore the city, do exciting things and meet amazing new people. I was so excited that I wouldn’t have to think about doing homework or studying into the wee hours of the morning praying and hoping that I’d pass a test. It’s been nine months since I’ve graduated and 6 months since I’ve moved to Kansas city and I’m finally getting used to this new life.

I might sound dramatic saying “new life” but to me it really has been something completely new. College was a bubble and probably the most blissful bubble that I’ve ever been in. I had my freedom while still being supported by my parents. I never worried about incidental expenses or if I was going to make rent each month. All I had to do was wake up, go to class and graduate. How I wish I could do college all over again. I thought in college I really had a hard grasp of who I was and the woman I wanted to be, but that was just the iceberg of finding myself. 

The bubble popped when I moved and started working. I really thought I was adulting in college, but the real world is whole other beast. I have cried so many times, I have been depressed for weeks on end, I have had to pick myself up more times than I can count and I have knelt down and prayed so many times for guidance and strength. I have learned of my  weaknesses that were masked by the college lifestyle. I have never wanted to just give up and go home so much in my life. I’m not the best with change because it reveals things I don’t necessarily want to deal with. Like the saying goes, change is inevitable. 

Change always comes when we need it the most. I’ve been out of my college bubble for 9 months now and I’m finally getting comfortable in my situation. I have tackled internal issues, adjusted my way of thinking and living, and I’m a better woman for it. If you are about to make a change in your life just know it’s out of discomfort that you’ll grow the most.

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